The war
today.
The war inside of my head.
I thought that I killed my enemy.
Yes, I thought that my ego was dead.
But it's still stubbornly living in the kingdom of my thoughts.
In the state, in the state of mind.
I've been out struggling with everyone.
In the arena all day.
Views I defend, they don't matter much.
Cause they would debate either way.
Where's the root of my problem?
Why does everyone oppose?
Every side, every side that I take.
There's gotta be a reason.
Hey God, where were you today?
You didn't answer my prayer.
Seems like I pray and I pray.
And lately you are not there.
Maybe my beliefs are all illusion.
Created by my mind just for a crutch.
Doubt creeps in to make its reintrusion.
I sweep away the faith I need so much.
I've been out fighting the war today.
The struggle is endless it seems.
And when I lie down to sleep at night.
It even goes on in my dreams.
It's like an inward Armageddon.
And you know I'm stuck right in between.
And both sides, both sides are so mean.